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Indecision
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Indecision

11.11.14

  02:00:00 pm, by   , 416 words  
Categories: Art, Collage

Indecision


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 This image came like that, without having previously thought about or being concerned about an existential question. But it asks me several questions and brings me back decades before .

At the time, I wondered if I should have a "normal" life, having children in a stable relationship or move to other horizons. I finally took the second option, but the question remained present. Probably did I escape in my pictures, as they are providing me daily adventures. Looking more closely at this picture, I think of my first wife, and then erased and there like a ghost since she died of her incurable alcoholism. We had a child together whose entry into adult life was a drama. And I had to raise her a few years alone. And her son prefers not to see me when we live in the same city !

From this story I still have scars, but I 'm upright , also thanks to my current wife that beautifies my life for over a quarter century now.

This image is like a mirror for me. I cannot decode everything as it eludes my understanding , but it is familiar to me as an old family photo.


the bigger picture 

Indécision

 

Cette image  est venue comme ça, sans que j’y aie réfléchi  auparavant ou que je sois préoccupé par une interrogation existentielle. Elle me pose pourtant plusieurs questions et me ramène des décennies en arrière.

A l’époque, je me demandais si je devais mener une vie « normale », avoir des enfants dans une relation stable ou bien partir vers d’autres horizons. J’ai finalement opté pour la 2e solution, mais l’interrogation demeurait présente. Sans doute me suis-je évadé dans mes images, celles-ci  me procurant des aventures quotidiennes. En regardant de plus près cette image, je pense à ma première femme, effacée et là comme un fantôme car morte de son alcoolisme incurable. Nous avons eu un enfant ensemble dont l’entrée dans la vie d’adulte a été bien dramatique. Et que j’ai dû élever pendant quelques années tout seul.  Et son fils à elle a préféré ne plus me voir alors que nous vivons dans la même ville!

De toute cette histoire je garde encore des cicatrices, mais je suis debout,  aussi  grâce à mon actuelle femme qui embellit ma vie depuis plus d’un quart de siècle.

 

Cette image est comme un miroir pour moi. Je ne peux pas tout y décoder car elle se dérobe à ma compréhension, mais elle m’est familière comme une vieille photo de famille. 

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