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02.04.12

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Categories: Art, Collage

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Seized by ... the disease. I think this collage has to do with my brother’s Alzheimer's disease recently diagnosed.
If I refer to the photo I had published, where I jumped over him from behind, I see an analogy in the gesture. At the time, it was a game, like children. But without the photo, I never would have guessed that he was frightened. This was a revelation for me. I had this power over him. And he was weaker than it used to appear.
Today, they are helping hands that land on his shoulders and I say to myself that these are - among others - mine. They are trying - unsuccessfully - to prevent an announced breakup, to support a severely shattered moral . Well, for now he’s OK, we converse on the phone - almost – as always, but I cannot help thinking about his illness.
It is curious to note that I find myself with a half-sister (much older) who no longer recognizes me and an older brother threatened the same fate. Who am I following? The father who had symptoms of straying toward the beginning of his 70 years or my mother - with a few fantasies of somebody stealing her silverware and clothings - who continued to speak with me as always, till the final year, at 99 years?


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Saisi par… la maladie. Je pense que ce collage a un rapport avec la maladie d’Alzheimer diagnostiquée chez mon frère.
Si je me rapporte à la photo que j’avais publiée, où je lui sautais dessus par derrière, je vois une analogie dans le geste. A l’époque, c’était un jeu, à la manière des enfants. Mais sans la photo, je n’aurais jamais deviné qu’il avait eu peur. Cela fut une révélation pour moi. J’avais ce pouvoir sur lui. Et il était plus faible qu’il n’y paraissait.
Aujourd’hui, ce sont des mains secourables qui se posent sur ses épaules et je me dis que ce sont – parmi d’autres – les miennes. Elles essaient – vainement - d’empêcher une dislocation annoncée, de soutenir un moral soumis à rude épreuve. Bon, pour l’instant il va, nous conversons au téléphone comme – presque – d’habitude, mais je ne peux m’empêcher de penser à sa maladie.
Il est curieux de noter que je me retrouve avec une demi-sœur (bien plus âgée) qui ne me reconnaît plus et un frère aîné menacé du même sort. De qui tiens-je ? Du père qui présentait des symptômes d’égarement vers le début de ses 70 ans ou de ma mère qui à part quelques fantasmes de vol de son argenterie et de vêtements continuait de raisonner comme toujours, jusqu’à toute dernière année, à 99 ans ?

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